Shoulda, Woulda, Coulda

I got talking with a friend of mine and she asked me if I had ever regretted breaking up with someone. I had to briefly scan through all the exes and the truth is NO. 


I'd like to think that the relationships of the past ended for the right reason. Whether it be that we were incompatible or that we had absolutely nothing in common... except for the sex. And a relationship with only sex can only go on for so long before the sex itself starts to deteriorate. It would also seem that I have a track record of not remaining friends with my exes. Once it's over it's pretty much over. Except for the last relationship where we broke up 4 times within the course of 9 months. You see this final break up was very easy. After having it done it 3 times you tend to master the break up the fourth time around. 


I guess you may tend to wonder what could have been the future if you were still together and I guess my point of view is that I'm kinda glad that there is no future with any of my exes. Why bother reminiscing about the past when you can look forward to the future. I'm still optimistic somewhere deep down that the positive match is somewhere out there and when you find him/her, things should just fly. 


And if you should happen to come across a frog... grab it and kiss the fuck out of it. 


*melocoton*

Friend or Lover?

Can you date your friends? What about your friends friend? I recently started seeing a friend of a friend and I guess things will never be the same again. 


Well we've casually met a couple times before we started 'seeing' each other but now it is in that weird stage. Do we take the next step or do we fear ruining the friendship and go back to being just friends? The dilemma is that no matter what happens it will be impossible to avoid him. We both have mutual friends and as a result we'll run into each other at one point or another. So we had a mini talk and came to no conclusion and continue being in this grey zone, so to speak. He says that it seems like I'm more into him bla bla bla. So naturally I decided to give him some space. That means no calling, no texting, no facebooking...nada. zip. This is also code for playing the game. And I HATE games. 


It's been days of radio silence but last night he called me and invited me for drinks with his friends before I left for Christmas break. During the whole night he commented that I was acting weird. Perhaps I was. I guess in my mind I felt questions rolling through my head like Jeopardy. Where is this going? Am I here as your friend or something else? What did you tell these people about me? It's a strange feeling. I still have no idea where this is headed but I guess I should just not worry and take it as it comes. But of course that is easier said than done especially when you let your emotions do the talking.


There's a great old saying: Your emotions are the slaves to your thoughts and you are the slave to your emotions


Hope you all have a good Christmas! 


^^melocoton^^